The Sulky Attention Seeking Friend.

So I'm pretty sure most of you have one, know one or if no to both then maybe you are one and in that case you are pathetic and are actually the worst!

These people legitimately suck the life out of you!

People like this tend to make everything revolve around them. So much so that they may start fights with other friends over nothing, pretend to be ridiculously intoxicated after two drinks when normally downing a bottle of rum gets them slightly wasted, pretends to get bashed and comes back with band-aids on (that keep moving places slightly - showing that there is nothing under them), loses all their stuff (like a phone...even when they try calling you after it is apparently 'lost'), are just general buzz kills.

Well I'd just like to put it out there, If you are someone who does these things please stop because you are an embarrassment and everyone will get sick of it and begin to hate you. And if you know someone like this, my advice is simple...Cut them out of your life. They are a waste of space and are just stealing your amazingly fabulous gorgeousness and turning it into pity for themselves.

Lots of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Ever More Infrequent Sex

I have a friend, who is although new i treasue dearly.

This friend has a problem, one of which i think they are in need of guidance and advice. This issue is of high importance, it is about sex. and not just sex, about anything remotely sexual and about one of the top priorities, love making.

This friend has been with his girlfriend for years, let's say 4 for example. And here is the problem...there has been no kind of sex in at least 1 year. At least!

The friends girlfriend has refused to have a conversation about why and if i was in my lovely friends position i don't think I'd be too impressed.

The only reason i really can think of is that the girlfriend might be cheating (though hopefully not, as i haven't met her but i'm sure she is lovely and wouldn't be the kind of person to do that) or maybe my friend is just really shit in the bedroom. but isn't it 'practice makes perfect' so shouldn't they always be at it then?

I don't know. but hopefully for my friends sake things change. As honestly if i was him there'd be no way i would have put up with no explanation as to why one partner is avoiding the othes 'parts' like they have the plague! because really is one conversation that hard?

I really don't know how my friend has done it and stayed faithful. i congratulate him heaps! As I would be asking 'when is enough enough?' Way to often to have stayed so long.
And with his girlfriend, i really don't know what she's thinking as she has a great catch yet is risking losing him over something so small (yet so important) as sex.

Lots of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Get lost!

Getting lost will help you find yourself.

This i know sounds silly, but it's true.

letting yourself fall into a 'lost world' within yourself will help you find who you are, what you want, what you need and who and what is important to you as opposed to who is not. And this 'world' believe it or not isn't too far away it's just letting yourself get there that is the hard part as really, who wants to be lost?!

I got lost. i had nothing i was hoping for or wanted everyone started to blend as a group of people not actual individuals that i cherished/wanted/needed/even liked. And there i felt as though nothing could make me 'found' again. but here i am, more me than ever (and not just 'me', the 'me' who i am and want to be).

So do it, allow yourself to get lost within who you are in order to find who you are. It may be difficult but it's well worth it in the end as i now am where and who I'm supposed to be. 

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Yes, I AM happy!

Finally, again I am happy! Truly, inside and out content and happy.

Everything started to get shit in my life. My boyfriend and I we're drifting apart and fighting despite the fact we were spending ALL our time together, my bestfriend left and i was left with no one by my side who would always be there, I was hating one of my jobs and it was dragging down my whole pursona on the days i went there, i had nothing to look forward to.

But now.. Me and my boyfriend are better than ever and we don't need to be spending every second together, we celebrated our first anniversary <3, I have re-adjusted to life away from the bestfriend and am still managing to be happy and cope, I have resigned from my horrible job and gotten a promotion for full time at the job i completely ADORE working at, I have organised a travelling holiday and am now working towards and planning for it, I have realised if you're one of the people who is dragging me down, making me feel crap or not letting me be myself (either for in-your-face reasons or sub-conscience reasons you make me feel) i have left you behind. ...Possibly this is why I'm not texting you back, not starting the communication, not giving a shit that once again you're miserable and would like me to share your misery - because this time i don't care, you're on your own! ..Because I'm happy and nobody and nothing is going to change this!

The thing I've learnt most is that all that was needed was for me to put me first and actually listen to what i wanted. Which although i thought it was to be around the people i care about 24/7 it was completely the opposite it was to be around myself and re-find who i am, what i want, who i care for, where my life is going (not in the future, but now).

People are horrible when they are down, they lose and push things/people they care about away and they forget to think about how all this is effecting those people. I am truly so happy that i realised just in time.

And now... I sing because i'm happy, my laughter isn't fake, my smile is genuine, my interest isn't only in myself and all the crap i was dragging around with myself when i wasn't happy.
To the people i almost killed my relationships with but they stayed anyway, I LOVE YOU, THANK YOU. You are amazing!

I have figured out the inner key in happiness and I'm never misplacing it again!!



Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

games nights.

To put it nicely, my boyfriend is a geek!

His friends are nerds and they all get together to be lame and have a "games night" this is where they sit around like weirdo's for up to 12+ hours at once and play xbox.    
                     ...Because like seriously, what could be more boring fun!

So this week in particular is one that is so ridiculously dork-ish i thought i had to share it!

The boyfriend got back two nights ago.
          Night One : He went to a games night from the afternoon until the middle of the night.
          Night Two : He was meant to go to a games night but fell asleep instead - but when he awoke at 2am he of course tried really hard to get in contact with the other boys to see if the games night was still going and if he could go round or it was too late.
         Night Three : He is once again at a games night, that finishes at god knows what time.
         Night Four : The games night is at our place. (This normally starting around 6 and finishing mid day when i decide it's time for me and the boyfriend to go out for brunch)
Then there is Two more nights left... hopefully there will be no more "games nights" but of course there will be xbox-ing.

NERD ALERT OR WHAT?!

And the saddest part is, I've grown accustom to it, and the weeks that there is no games night are unfamiliar and 'different'.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx 

Change

2012 will be different and this is how..

• I will go back to the weight i was at the beggining of last year or skinnier. 
• I wont eat as much crap.
• I will start running again.
• I will do more things that make me happy.
• I will stop putting 'you' first when I'm in need of being first.
• I will say what i want and what i mean not what you want and need to hear.
• I will travel.
• I will make an investment.
• I will stop pretending to myself.
• I will love.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx  

Soul Crusher.

How are you supposed to tell someone you love to stop lying and make things right when you know they've been lying for years and all of a sudden it all makes sense.
How are you supposed to let them know they have the heart and soul of another in the palm of their hands and all that has to be done is let a piece of the string unfold and that person will be crushed for life.
How are you supposed to tell them to make it right when they are in so deep that the 'right' will still hurt someone's heart in unimaginable ways.

What are you supposed to do when you know it's all going to explode and nothing will be able to make it right.
How are you supposed to protect someone and protect yourself at the same time.

How are you meant to do anything? what are you meant to do?

How are you supposed to sit back and do nothing from a different state knowing that this christmas could unravel one of your biggest lies and leave someone i never want to see hurt in complete agony.

I wish i could expose you as the lying piece of filth that you are, although at the same time i love you and long for your care, love and exception of me. And this although i want and need it more than anything sickens me that you have this much imput into my emotions and my being.

I want to be able to hurt your emotions, make you feel like dirt and something that is a burdon on my life like you make us feel. I want you to hate yourself because you're not excepted by the ones that are meant to love you. I want you to be lied to and locked out of our life like you lock us out. I want you to feel the pain that you make us feel when you pile on another one of your lies, just so we can find out once again that you're a disgrace.

I love you but i hate you even more for the pain you cause the ones i love. I know your secrets and betrayals because i've learnt through mistake after mistake that when you pretend to care it's only to fool us into believing your next lie. And congratulations once again it worked, not on me but on the person it will hurt the most, as i've learnt how to hide the pain and not care but this other person has not. I've always been there to shelter them but this time i can't be, and it's killing me.

Sometimes i wonder what happened to you to make you so bitter, who hurt you so much that you don't know how to love but most of the time i pitty you because in the end you'll have no one. Of course we will always be around, we just wont care as much. And that will be when you need it the most after it's all run out and there is none left.

I hope you read this, because you'll know exactly what lie i just uncovered and you will hate yourself.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx