How are you supposed to tell someone you love to stop lying and make things right when you know they've been lying for years and all of a sudden it all makes sense.
How are you supposed to let them know they have the heart and soul of another in the palm of their hands and all that has to be done is let a piece of the string unfold and that person will be crushed for life.
How are you supposed to tell them to make it right when they are in so deep that the 'right' will still hurt someone's heart in unimaginable ways.
What are you supposed to do when you know it's all going to explode and nothing will be able to make it right.
How are you supposed to protect someone and protect yourself at the same time.
How are you meant to do anything? what are you meant to do?
How are you supposed to sit back and do nothing from a different state knowing that this christmas could unravel one of your biggest lies and leave someone i never want to see hurt in complete agony.
I wish i could expose you as the lying piece of filth that you are, although at the same time i love you and long for your care, love and exception of me. And this although i want and need it more than anything sickens me that you have this much imput into my emotions and my being.
I want to be able to hurt your emotions, make you feel like dirt and something that is a burdon on my life like you make us feel. I want you to hate yourself because you're not excepted by the ones that are meant to love you. I want you to be lied to and locked out of our life like you lock us out. I want you to feel the pain that you make us feel when you pile on another one of your lies, just so we can find out once again that you're a disgrace.
I love you but i hate you even more for the pain you cause the ones i love. I know your secrets and betrayals because i've learnt through mistake after mistake that when you pretend to care it's only to fool us into believing your next lie. And congratulations once again it worked, not on me but on the person it will hurt the most, as i've learnt how to hide the pain and not care but this other person has not. I've always been there to shelter them but this time i can't be, and it's killing me.
Sometimes i wonder what happened to you to make you so bitter, who hurt you so much that you don't know how to love but most of the time i pitty you because in the end you'll have no one. Of course we will always be around, we just wont care as much. And that will be when you need it the most after it's all run out and there is none left.
I hope you read this, because you'll know exactly what lie i just uncovered and you will hate yourself.
Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx
