Thursday 15 March 2012

Yes, I AM happy!

Finally, again I am happy! Truly, inside and out content and happy.

Everything started to get shit in my life. My boyfriend and I we're drifting apart and fighting despite the fact we were spending ALL our time together, my bestfriend left and i was left with no one by my side who would always be there, I was hating one of my jobs and it was dragging down my whole pursona on the days i went there, i had nothing to look forward to.

But now.. Me and my boyfriend are better than ever and we don't need to be spending every second together, we celebrated our first anniversary <3, I have re-adjusted to life away from the bestfriend and am still managing to be happy and cope, I have resigned from my horrible job and gotten a promotion for full time at the job i completely ADORE working at, I have organised a travelling holiday and am now working towards and planning for it, I have realised if you're one of the people who is dragging me down, making me feel crap or not letting me be myself (either for in-your-face reasons or sub-conscience reasons you make me feel) i have left you behind. ...Possibly this is why I'm not texting you back, not starting the communication, not giving a shit that once again you're miserable and would like me to share your misery - because this time i don't care, you're on your own! ..Because I'm happy and nobody and nothing is going to change this!

The thing I've learnt most is that all that was needed was for me to put me first and actually listen to what i wanted. Which although i thought it was to be around the people i care about 24/7 it was completely the opposite it was to be around myself and re-find who i am, what i want, who i care for, where my life is going (not in the future, but now).

People are horrible when they are down, they lose and push things/people they care about away and they forget to think about how all this is effecting those people. I am truly so happy that i realised just in time.

And now... I sing because i'm happy, my laughter isn't fake, my smile is genuine, my interest isn't only in myself and all the crap i was dragging around with myself when i wasn't happy.
To the people i almost killed my relationships with but they stayed anyway, I LOVE YOU, THANK YOU. You are amazing!

I have figured out the inner key in happiness and I'm never misplacing it again!!



Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

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