Expressing emotions

The truth is: telling someone how you feel and allowing yourself to be vulnerable to them is a big step. It's something that can either go in an extreme positive direction or can diminish your self esteem and your 'person' by going in a negative path.

But isn't it worth the risk? I mean, what is the point of holding back in fear of regection, fear of allowing yourself to be happy, fear of giving someone such an amount of power, fear of sounding like a fool, fear of smothering someone, fear of anything. What is the point to withhold your emotion which is part of who you are just for a reason such as fear? Especially as your withholding it from someone you want to share everything with.

I risk it. If it's true and how i feel i find there's no need to be scared. Because the person you feel this way about is worth it and is worth being told someone cares, as if they weren't worth it, you wouldn't feel the way you do about them anyway. So it justifies itself.

Personally i would much rather take the risk and hope not to fall than leave it there and say nothing but always wonder what would or could have happened if you'd taken the risk rather than been to scared to fall.

But thats just my opinion. I could be wrong, though i doubt i am.

So my advice that comes along is.. Let the people you care about know you appreciate them and care too, before someone else comes along who shows them they are valued.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

Handle my worst, Deserve my best.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe.

This sums it up pretty much completely.

Just thought i'd put it out there to you all.. If you can't handle your lovely tresured person at their worst, there is no way you deserve their best!

It's funny how when you meet someone, you always try to look good, you're generally not covered in make up from the night before, un-showered, hungover or just generally looking disgusting. And because you don't meet people like this, you generally begin to like the person faster than if you met them whilst they looked like a hobo sitting in the middle of trash.

My boyfriend met me the first i don't know..bagillion times whilst i looked like a hobo sitting in trash. This being surprising as he still took the time to know me and decided to possibly even like me.
So the other night, this topic was brought up whilst in bed, i commented on how i looked crap the first 50 times my boyfriend saw me and to make me feel better my boyfriend said back, "yeah i know, you really did look very crap some of those times" this of course was muchly appreciated.

Although the moral of this is.. If you're loved one doesn't or can't handle you at your worst they definately don't deserve you at your best. Where as my beloved definately deserves me at my best, and most likely deserves a medal aswell. And to all the ones out there who handle the worsts in the same fashion as my boyfriend, on behalf of your partner, you are amazing.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

The Admitting of Feelings.

Everybody has the same issue, well this is what i find. Who is supposed to say how they feel first? Because i know in my case i wouldn't want to be the one to say anything big first incase it's not said back, yet wouldn't this be exactly what the other party is worried of too?

I recently (whilst drunk but reiterated it again in the morning as my partner asked me to do whilst i was drunk babbeling) told my partner more of how i felt. possibly in the most childish wording ever, but nevertheless i took a step and said how i felt. This being
                                                       "I think i like you more than like'
Which in my case, this is very true. Yet although i said this in a childish like term it doesn't make it any less real or big of a deal.

Although, the thing is, i feel stupid for saying it. The fact that i was drunk would have been a good excuse to have left it at that but because i was asked to tell my partner again whilst sober because he said i would be surprised (not knowing at all of what), i did. This possibly being a mistake of sorts, as i now feel like a moron as my amazing boyfriend let me tell him again that "i think i like you more than like" although only had aww an extremely tight hug and a million kisses to say as a reply.

But here is the thing.. I wasn't expecting him to say anything in return nor am i upset or anything that he didn't as his reaction was more than enough, i still for some unknown reason feel like a tard.

Though as my beautiful boyfriend made sure to tell me was not to feel stupid of apologise for saying my feelings. This being comforting to hear, yet the situation on my behalf is still left with me being the one who said their feelings first and resulted in feeling like an epic fool. This being something i am not so glad about.

Lucky that i like my man too much to care about being the one to say a childish expression of feelings first.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

The impossibility of sexily unskinny-ing.

This issue is one that occurs far too many times seeing as it is really very unattractive. If you can remove your skinny jeans sexily, i congratulate you emensly.

The impossibility of removing skinny jeans sexily. We all know it's impossible, yet it is still tried to be pulled off as sexy, and in these attemps the words 'fail' and 'miserably' come to mind.

Anyhow, i just thought i would share with you all, stop trying to make your removal of your skinnys look sexy becuase you just look like some form of retarded animal..and if you are one who succeeds at removing them in a sexy fashion then well, i hate you.

 Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

The Bitch Girlfriend

So may i say just to start off... No amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity!

There's always that friend you love dearly and is amazing who goes off and gets a girlfriend who makes them change.. Possibly not on purpose but sometimes it is intentional.

Well i have this friend, who is incredible and has a girlfriend who is lovely aswell although makes this friend completely different. Makes the friend ignore his other female friends, distance himself and generally be a complete jerk until he has said goodbye to her for the day.

This is only a short but sweet message.. Your Girlfriend makes you act like an ass, stop it! We were here first and will still be here when your miss' is not. And to the girlfriend, there is nothing against you, but trust, we love your boyfriend but would never try to take him from you as if we wanted that we would have succeeded already.

 Oh and P.S.
The whole changing someone to make them suit you is pathetic.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

Relationship Boundaries.

There is this saying that has been around for oh so long and it goes along the lines of 'No boundaries, no relationship'. And i had always seen how this statement had made sense... until i began to think about it and look upon my own life.

The boundaries of a relationship being the bringing of all your shit. First it starts by in most scenarios the lady friend of the couple bringing overnight clothes to their partners place to keep in a draw, a spare toothbrush, and silly little pieces of crap like that. And this in most cases scares the hell out of the charming male...who probably has commitment issues - so be careful - or you're just too clingy too fast... So this bringing of shit becomes a problem as it sends your partner thoughts to run for the hills as of course, leaving a spare toothbrush at your partners means you clearly are dropping the hints for marriage (You guys are all retarded by the way.. as i'm sure a toothbrush isn't the same as a diamond ring catalogue left on the bench, it is most likey so they can have fresh breath.. but who know's who is right - it shall remain a mystery).

So as i was saying.. Maybe it isn't so freaky when the other half of your relationship leaves their toothbrush at your place, puts clothes on the shelves.. maybe it's possibly a good thing, and maybe the idea of having these boundaries is stupid as i didn't/don't have these boundaries and nothing seems to be showing the statement as true, for this scenario is 'no boundaries, yes relationship'

Maybe it's just me or maybe you should look at the pro's of having that extra toothbrush and a little less room for yourself in the closet, as i quite fancy it with the little less room, and you probably will too.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

That hurtful person.

There's always one person who hurts you continuously, whether it be a lover, family member or friend, it's a person who although puts you through tears, pain, lonesom, self-hatred and many more of these lovely emotions and stages you love regardless with a neverending supply of it.

It's a person you want to love you, so you try everything. Try to impress them with knowledge, experiences, everything you possibly can show off to them to make them appreciate you and love you in the way you want.

This person can be the harshest person in the world to you and destroy parts of you, yet all you still want is them to care.

I have a person in my life like this, and let me say although at times i hated them, wished they weren't in my life and that i never knew them amoungst it all i secretly wanted nothing but them to care and cherish me the way i'd hoped, wanted and possibly needed.

So to all you bastard people who without realising you are crushing someone, either a little girls heart, a partner, sibling or friend, wake up, see what you are doing and change it before it's too late and you regret how your relationship between the other person has become.

Luckily for me my person woke up after a wake up call that was life changing to them as they realised what they had let go and had to fight to get back in their life.

So really, make sure your person you seek love and care from is worth it, and in the end i hope for you all they find you worth it to.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx