That hurtful person.

There's always one person who hurts you continuously, whether it be a lover, family member or friend, it's a person who although puts you through tears, pain, lonesom, self-hatred and many more of these lovely emotions and stages you love regardless with a neverending supply of it.

It's a person you want to love you, so you try everything. Try to impress them with knowledge, experiences, everything you possibly can show off to them to make them appreciate you and love you in the way you want.

This person can be the harshest person in the world to you and destroy parts of you, yet all you still want is them to care.

I have a person in my life like this, and let me say although at times i hated them, wished they weren't in my life and that i never knew them amoungst it all i secretly wanted nothing but them to care and cherish me the way i'd hoped, wanted and possibly needed.

So to all you bastard people who without realising you are crushing someone, either a little girls heart, a partner, sibling or friend, wake up, see what you are doing and change it before it's too late and you regret how your relationship between the other person has become.

Luckily for me my person woke up after a wake up call that was life changing to them as they realised what they had let go and had to fight to get back in their life.

So really, make sure your person you seek love and care from is worth it, and in the end i hope for you all they find you worth it to.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx

Lust with a Loser.

This little read will tell you all about that one special person who you think is the one..until you realise they really aren't and you see your friends judgements of them becoming true, whether the judgements be they are a piece of shit or just a general low life asshole.

The one who you totally fell lustful for, the one who despite the way they treated you you thought they were amazingly nice and kind...even though this in reality wasn't the case. The one you made excusses in your mind for, excusses to your friends and even excusses to yourself. These excusses are the types that go along the lines of...
                     'It's how he shows he cares.'
                     'He didn't mean it.'
                     'I love him so it doesn't matter.'
                     'But i know he loves me.'
                    'He's not always like this, it's just the moment.'

If you say excusses like this to anyone, including yourself, you are wasting your time on a prick!! Stop your stupid lustful desires and get over the moron!

But here is the hard thing.. You really do think you care for them, until they do that one thing that makes you realise you don't. It makes you realise you don't deserve what they give. The problem with this is it could be a month into your relationship, 6 months, a year or even longer.

A way of seeing that really they are not the best idea for you is, for example when the song 'mean' by Taylor Swift is played it reminds you of them (even when you're still together)! If you have something like this, although it is amusing the jokes you make to your friends about having such a type of song like this to remind you of your loser whom you lust/lusted..it really should be a sign that its not right.

I'm not saying that it's all bad, cos a lot of it is nice, fun and what you want at the time.. It's only once you leave it or get hurt that badly that you realise you didn't want it at all.

But in my case, i was lucky. I left my lust with a loser and now have something much much better.  <3  :)

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx