Life plan

I always thought i'd be getting engaged around this stage of my life and married in a year or so and a baby a year or so after that. Now being at this stage I'm realising i have no fucking idea!

I want this stuff. But at the same time i really don't!

There is no way i want to be waking up to a screaming, needy, helpless child when half the time i still am one.

Life plans SUCK! They give you so much to hope for and look forward too and even if you don't exactly what your life plan at the same age or time anymore it still messes with your head and makes you feel like you have failed. And this possibly is the worst feeling you can make yourself have.

My advice that I have only just finally learnt to accept is.... Change it!
Yes your plan may seem solid but there is always room for improvements because right through till the end it is just a rough draft.
Nobody can plan your life - not even you! Yes you can shape it but whether you like it or not it won't ever go to plan. It will run free until you are ready for it to start to come true.

So just wait because everything happens for a reason, just remember to smile and love throughout your adventure called life!

Xx

The Sulky Attention Seeking Friend.

So I'm pretty sure most of you have one, know one or if no to both then maybe you are one and in that case you are pathetic and are actually the worst!

These people legitimately suck the life out of you!

People like this tend to make everything revolve around them. So much so that they may start fights with other friends over nothing, pretend to be ridiculously intoxicated after two drinks when normally downing a bottle of rum gets them slightly wasted, pretends to get bashed and comes back with band-aids on (that keep moving places slightly - showing that there is nothing under them), loses all their stuff (like a phone...even when they try calling you after it is apparently 'lost'), are just general buzz kills.

Well I'd just like to put it out there, If you are someone who does these things please stop because you are an embarrassment and everyone will get sick of it and begin to hate you. And if you know someone like this, my advice is simple...Cut them out of your life. They are a waste of space and are just stealing your amazingly fabulous gorgeousness and turning it into pity for themselves.

Lots of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Ever More Infrequent Sex

I have a friend, who is although new i treasue dearly.

This friend has a problem, one of which i think they are in need of guidance and advice. This issue is of high importance, it is about sex. and not just sex, about anything remotely sexual and about one of the top priorities, love making.

This friend has been with his girlfriend for years, let's say 4 for example. And here is the problem...there has been no kind of sex in at least 1 year. At least!

The friends girlfriend has refused to have a conversation about why and if i was in my lovely friends position i don't think I'd be too impressed.

The only reason i really can think of is that the girlfriend might be cheating (though hopefully not, as i haven't met her but i'm sure she is lovely and wouldn't be the kind of person to do that) or maybe my friend is just really shit in the bedroom. but isn't it 'practice makes perfect' so shouldn't they always be at it then?

I don't know. but hopefully for my friends sake things change. As honestly if i was him there'd be no way i would have put up with no explanation as to why one partner is avoiding the othes 'parts' like they have the plague! because really is one conversation that hard?

I really don't know how my friend has done it and stayed faithful. i congratulate him heaps! As I would be asking 'when is enough enough?' Way to often to have stayed so long.
And with his girlfriend, i really don't know what she's thinking as she has a great catch yet is risking losing him over something so small (yet so important) as sex.

Lots of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Get lost!

Getting lost will help you find yourself.

This i know sounds silly, but it's true.

letting yourself fall into a 'lost world' within yourself will help you find who you are, what you want, what you need and who and what is important to you as opposed to who is not. And this 'world' believe it or not isn't too far away it's just letting yourself get there that is the hard part as really, who wants to be lost?!

I got lost. i had nothing i was hoping for or wanted everyone started to blend as a group of people not actual individuals that i cherished/wanted/needed/even liked. And there i felt as though nothing could make me 'found' again. but here i am, more me than ever (and not just 'me', the 'me' who i am and want to be).

So do it, allow yourself to get lost within who you are in order to find who you are. It may be difficult but it's well worth it in the end as i now am where and who I'm supposed to be. 

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Yes, I AM happy!

Finally, again I am happy! Truly, inside and out content and happy.

Everything started to get shit in my life. My boyfriend and I we're drifting apart and fighting despite the fact we were spending ALL our time together, my bestfriend left and i was left with no one by my side who would always be there, I was hating one of my jobs and it was dragging down my whole pursona on the days i went there, i had nothing to look forward to.

But now.. Me and my boyfriend are better than ever and we don't need to be spending every second together, we celebrated our first anniversary <3, I have re-adjusted to life away from the bestfriend and am still managing to be happy and cope, I have resigned from my horrible job and gotten a promotion for full time at the job i completely ADORE working at, I have organised a travelling holiday and am now working towards and planning for it, I have realised if you're one of the people who is dragging me down, making me feel crap or not letting me be myself (either for in-your-face reasons or sub-conscience reasons you make me feel) i have left you behind. ...Possibly this is why I'm not texting you back, not starting the communication, not giving a shit that once again you're miserable and would like me to share your misery - because this time i don't care, you're on your own! ..Because I'm happy and nobody and nothing is going to change this!

The thing I've learnt most is that all that was needed was for me to put me first and actually listen to what i wanted. Which although i thought it was to be around the people i care about 24/7 it was completely the opposite it was to be around myself and re-find who i am, what i want, who i care for, where my life is going (not in the future, but now).

People are horrible when they are down, they lose and push things/people they care about away and they forget to think about how all this is effecting those people. I am truly so happy that i realised just in time.

And now... I sing because i'm happy, my laughter isn't fake, my smile is genuine, my interest isn't only in myself and all the crap i was dragging around with myself when i wasn't happy.
To the people i almost killed my relationships with but they stayed anyway, I LOVE YOU, THANK YOU. You are amazing!

I have figured out the inner key in happiness and I'm never misplacing it again!!



Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Change

2012 will be different and this is how..

• I will go back to the weight i was at the beggining of last year or skinnier. 
• I wont eat as much crap.
• I will start running again.
• I will do more things that make me happy.
• I will stop putting 'you' first when I'm in need of being first.
• I will say what i want and what i mean not what you want and need to hear.
• I will travel.
• I will make an investment.
• I will stop pretending to myself.
• I will love.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx  

Soul Crusher.

How are you supposed to tell someone you love to stop lying and make things right when you know they've been lying for years and all of a sudden it all makes sense.
How are you supposed to let them know they have the heart and soul of another in the palm of their hands and all that has to be done is let a piece of the string unfold and that person will be crushed for life.
How are you supposed to tell them to make it right when they are in so deep that the 'right' will still hurt someone's heart in unimaginable ways.

What are you supposed to do when you know it's all going to explode and nothing will be able to make it right.
How are you supposed to protect someone and protect yourself at the same time.

How are you meant to do anything? what are you meant to do?

How are you supposed to sit back and do nothing from a different state knowing that this christmas could unravel one of your biggest lies and leave someone i never want to see hurt in complete agony.

I wish i could expose you as the lying piece of filth that you are, although at the same time i love you and long for your care, love and exception of me. And this although i want and need it more than anything sickens me that you have this much imput into my emotions and my being.

I want to be able to hurt your emotions, make you feel like dirt and something that is a burdon on my life like you make us feel. I want you to hate yourself because you're not excepted by the ones that are meant to love you. I want you to be lied to and locked out of our life like you lock us out. I want you to feel the pain that you make us feel when you pile on another one of your lies, just so we can find out once again that you're a disgrace.

I love you but i hate you even more for the pain you cause the ones i love. I know your secrets and betrayals because i've learnt through mistake after mistake that when you pretend to care it's only to fool us into believing your next lie. And congratulations once again it worked, not on me but on the person it will hurt the most, as i've learnt how to hide the pain and not care but this other person has not. I've always been there to shelter them but this time i can't be, and it's killing me.

Sometimes i wonder what happened to you to make you so bitter, who hurt you so much that you don't know how to love but most of the time i pitty you because in the end you'll have no one. Of course we will always be around, we just wont care as much. And that will be when you need it the most after it's all run out and there is none left.

I hope you read this, because you'll know exactly what lie i just uncovered and you will hate yourself.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx 

i love you

Fake smiling, pretending to others that you're happy, pretending to yourself that you're happy. Until it suddenly catches up to you and you feel yourself beggining to fall apart.

What are you meant to do? Keep smiling? Deal with it? What if you don't know what you are dealing with. What if you're just a mess?!

Maybe my life has become a routine? Nothing new and exciting, romantic, spontaneous, surprising, fun is happening. It is the same old fun, the same old gestures of passion, love, friendship, everything. It's the same, nothing new.
Perhaps it's all just boredom within life for the moment, maybe it's actual unhappiness.

Although I think it's boredom of the same everything. How do you fix that? what do you do to change it when everyone and thing around you keeps only offering you the same things, the same ways to show they care, they love, they treasure. You only get the same.

My unhappiness affects the people i love (like it has today) and for that i hate myself. ...I'm sorry - i love you always, regardless of my unpleasantness and difficulty to put up with sometimes.
                        ....PS... I treasure you closest to my heart.

This however could be because i am a massive drama queen and sook - possibly everything is fine and i am just overreacting to a bad week..who knows.      ...not me...

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

The Boyfriends Roots.

So my boyfriend was a bit of a tramp before we met (not that i can judge, nor care as it was his past not present/future) and somehow things creep up to linger in my subconscience. Not often, but still often enough.
                  ....And there's nothing i can do about it.
Besides feel lousy.

To give you an example of the times that i ended up feeling like shit about myself (for who knows what reason) ....

A few months ago we were all out at the local pub for our ritual saturday night though my boyfriend was away that week. I got talking with my bestfriend and another girl (who i have become friends with since meeting through the group surrounding my boyfriend) about general girl talk. As we are in the middle of a conversation nothing to do with anything important the girl says '...me and ...boyfriends name.. used to fuck...' thats all i really remember except the fact all the alcohol then rushed to my emotions which didnt help. Luckily my dearest bestie was there to say she needed the bathroom and drag me with her before i could become a mess in front of people. 
                     Two things though;                 
                                                   Why did that have to be brought that up in converstaion and make me pretend i didnt care and that i already knew - as to not be awkward - (which i think i should have already known but didn't)
                                                 And secondly why would i have not known this? why would my boyfriend not have told me?! I hang out with this girl, shouldn't i know you've fucked? But that's ok that i didn't know my mind now can play fun games like 'think of all the depressing reasons why he didn't tell you' - woo fun!

I got over that one pretty fast though. About the time my alcohol wore off.. or a few days later.. i can't quite remember.

But here we go, example number two. And this one sucks!

The other week i met and had drinks with one of my boyfriend and the boys' old friend ..who just to add is younger than me and prettier too!... this girl i'd heard bits about but not much. The main thing i'd heard was she'd slept with one of the boys' ..i'll call him Cody for arguments sake. I'd also heard a rumor she'd slept with my boyfriend and before meeting i asked him 'is she pretty?' He'd responded by telling me not at all (apparently in his opinion) and asked 'have you slept with her?' and he replied to my question with 'Cody slept with her.' this making me as anyone else would do the same take the sleeping question as a no.
So we went out for drinks, ra ra ra.
Then a week-ish later comments on a facebook status breach the topic that yes my boyfriend had fucked her. as the comments went...
                       boyfriend: blablabla...you fucked Cody...blablabla
                                girl: I fucked you too
                      boyfriend: blablabla
As i am left there wondering why my boyfriend indirectly lied to me about it and what does talking about it mean my boyfriend continues his stupid conversation about it. I don't joke with my ex's about how we used to fuck because i don't care so by talking about it on a public place for everyone to see shows what exactly, that you still care? I don't know.
      But i do know avoiding my question before meeting her about the relationship between you guys and telling me it was one of the other boys (though this was true) not you is deffinately not a wise idea for the future!

So that's it.
Ex fucks should your partner know or not? what about if your partner knows the person, should you tell them then?
Cos not telling them i'm sure isn't the best choice to go with.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Death by suffocation.

Those stupid people who believe "we're meant to be together" regardless of the fact the other half of the 'we' is sure that you're not. So sure that you wouldn't care if they we're in this universe or not. Yet are forced to stay as 'together forever' or are just there as a  little follower who will one day be with you (possibly again) and you will be 'forever together'.     And these people, these relationships, these scenarios SUCK! .. just to put it simply.

I truly don't understand why you stay with that special (or not so special) person because one of you thinks 'this is it'. Why is it? Is it for comfort and the norm because you're too afraid to hurt that little bit so you just stay forever and end up being the 'forever together couple' that really at the core of it one or even both of you are screaming for out?

But then the ones who are dragging you down because you're there true love, their life's only complete when you are on their arm. YOU GUYS ARE PATHETIC! no offence..

Why do people feel content with life when it's through manipulation, guilt, dishonesty in lies and betrayal or force that the people around you are staying? Or not even staying, you're just following. How are you happy within? How are you smiling on the inside as well as the outside?

Some people dazzel me with their profound ways at life and their ability to be happy whilst dragging someone down to achieve it.

You people deep down are horrible, and in my eyes you're a waste of space. Because all you do is slowly kill someone else - regardless if that other person seems to care or recognise that you are suffocating them to their death you are still horrible.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

romantic sex or romantic snuggle.

As i was sitting home watching crap on tv over dinner with my love i decide 'hey, maybe i could be romantic tommorow night and surprise my boyfriend' because he is always doing sweet stuff for me.
So that's what i attempted the following night, and here's how it went..

It was 7pm after i got home and had finished dinner, he would be home at 8. Perfect i had one hour. I moved all the shit and clutter away and put it where it belongs and noticed how it actually looks nice and huge when it's clean, who would have thought! I showered put on sexy lingure and covered the whole room with candles. It looked beautiful. We had strawberries in champagne downstairns plus an extra bottle of champagne too :) ! I was excited..and i looked pretty good, well at least i thought.

8pm when he arrives home. We go upstairs so he can put his stuff away, possibly play his xbox, but i knew that was not what i'd planned for the cards that evening.

He opens the bedroom door and there is our bedroom looking beautifully romantic.

Though.. my night then went off course..

I like to snuggle when we go to bed. So my boyfriend thought he would give me what i wanted and want to snuggle. This putting a downer on my night as 'sweetie i love to snuggle, but no that is not what i planned tonight!'

Though after an awkward moment of him trying to snuggle to give me what i normally want and me seducing him i finally got it through his head that hey, tonight it's not about the snuggling. Then we got our strawberries and champagne and the night that I'd originally planned.

So what is it, is a planned night romantic only when it ends in sex or when plans are changed and it ends in snuggles (that are normally cute and romantic whilst watching a movie in bed) with a room full of candles still romantic or does it lose it's point of a romantic suprise?

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Nothing Over $22 or Everything Over $200?

What is actually better? Are the expensive shops better than the cheaper shops?...In all cases?

There's this to die for gorgeous throw over top, that really just completes you. It is exactly your style, your colour, your everything. But it's $89 from the nice boutique store that looks although it is all thats happening. As you ponder over purchasing this fab piece of clothing for the same as your weekly rent share you peruse the other shops in the street. And fancy that! It's the same top from a nice cheaper store just down the road. It's only $20. Which one is better? Are the fabrics, stitchings and everything else of better quality when you buy from the boutique shop or is there mark up just greedy?

I don't know! But I go for the one that costs the same as lunch rather than rent.

The town i currently live in sucks on the shopping side, until a few months back where a new little store called 'Nothing Over $22' opened.
As an example of this, a friend of mine, who is extremely short on cash every week (without splashing out on anything - ever!) recently bought a necklace from a highly overpriced store for $150!!! really a necklace for one hundred and fifty dollars!! where are your brains! Without even looking at other stores around. Like two doors up is the nothing over $22 store that has practically the exact same necklace for i dono.. $22 or less. WOULD THAT NOT BE SMARTER? To purchase the cheap one from a nice store with everything the other store has for just a fraction of the cost.

People are silly with their money. They are stupid in fact.

But my thought is.. even if something is cheaper and possible not as good yet still does the job and you can't actually tell the difference at all what-so-ever why do people buy the expensive stuff? Is it just to brag and show off, are some people really that vain and deluded?

I'm glad I'm not like that as i can get my necklace and still afford cocktails with the girls after, rather than 2-minute noodles until next pay day.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

I'm not yours.

There are these 'types' of people around us who.. in my words.. are annoyingly possessive, controlling, subliminaly trying to destroy good things that you have(with their constant in your face approach or stupid suggestions), and think that you are 'theirs', guilt you, and all sorts of stuff like this.

These people are wrong, we are not yours! and in fact if you want even a smidgen of me, i advise you to back off.. because sweetheart, soon i wont just not be 'yours', i wont be your anything. You are smothering me, you are holding the pillow over my head so that i can't breath.. and we all know loss of oxygen results in death.

But don't get me wrong. I LOVE YOU TO DEATH, you're just rushing things into the wrong direction at a high speed pace. But the thing is, no matter how i try to show you or tell you this, you don't want to take it on board, you listen but you don't hear what i am saying.
                            And what i am saying is don't ruin what we have. Because i like us.

Although if you are trying to ruin us and what we have, congratulations. You're doing an amazing job.

I will never be the 'property' of you. Please try and remember that, trust me it will do us both good. I am my property and that is final. You don't get a say!

So.. i sound harsh so i will remind you, I LOVE YOU!!!! i just don't want to love you when you're making us like this. We don't know what will happen in a month from now, 2 months or even 6 years. What i do know is i want nothing more than you to be apart of my life. So please stop jeopradising that possibility.

And this, it could be anyone in your life, a boyfriend/girlfriend, family member, friend, anyone. And by saying this it may not mean it's the most likely candidate who will be the one to do this. But for your sake i hope you don't have a person who is like this at the moment, because it would suck to be you if you did.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

I love you, dont I?

Do you actually love the ones who love you, or do you love them because they love you?
Do you love the ones you're ment to because they are amazing or because you have to put up with them?
Do you love beacuse you want to be loved or because you love them regardless if they love you as you can see their beauty, inner and out and perceive them as 'perfet'?
Do we love because we are ment to or because we genuinely love?

Can you love someone without actually liking their 'person'? I know people who are like this and believe that you can. But i think they are wrong. I think if you love someone but don't like them, the truth is you just don't want to be alone so you settle with whatever is easiest and has the least effort and possibilities of heartache, and in your own twisted way make yourself believe it is love not just desperation.

Is love real? Or is it what we have made it with our guidlines of what love actually is? Possibly we have told ourselves what love is and should be like rather than allow it to be whatever it is, come in different forms, shapes and sizes rather than be a constricted box that everything outside simply is not good enough to be classified as 'love' heedless of if it is or isn't.
Has our generalisation in a discription of how love is ruined it for some people, some circumstances?

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

The silly questioning thoughts.

So recently my head has been full of silly questions that i cannot seem to answer.. so, i shall share them :)

How do you know if you are happy? But how do you know if you are not? I mean people smile and seem happy even when they're not, right. And people look upset and miserable when also perhaps they are just distracted by something, not necessarily unhappiness.

Do statistics of other peoples efforts really mean anything? I have a friend who recently has had a lot to say about the enormous possibility of relationship failure. Apparently the stats are 98% of young relationships fail and ONLY 2% are the happily ever after fairytales we all want. Does this mean because the majority of people and relationships fall into the 98% i will? Or could i be the exception despite the odds?

When somebody says forever do they mean 'for ever' or 'for ever at the moment'. How can you possibly tell. How does someone know what they will want in 2 months from now, 5 years from now, let alone in atleast 25 years from now. Although possibly because i am extremely hipocritical at this very moment about this topic i believe i know what i want.. But still, how on earth does anybody else!? I mean forever is a long time, how can someone possibly know what they will want. So really does forever mean 'for ever' or 'for ever at the moment'? This doesn't even have to do with anything in particular it could be...
         - pink will be my favourite colour forever.
         - i will love you forever
         - i want to be with you forever
         - i want pizza once a month forever
See nothing serious or something serious, how does anyone really know? I'm sure i don't really know i only think i do (though I'm pretty incredibly certain!!). But how do you actually know? And because no one really does know what they will want for ever, can you make promises or plans if at one stage your 'for ever' could go back to have ment 'for ever from that moment earlier in time'.

Do people ever actually get their dream house, job, husband or wife, children, financial status.. does it ever actually happen? Or do your standards, dreams and desires change to accomodate what you can actually get? How long do you have to wait to get what you really want?..Because the time waiting feels like a lifetime. Regardless of what you are waiting for at the current moment.

Though enough rambling.. As i am an expert and could go on for days.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

Relationship vs 'Sex-ationship'

What is better the relationship with everything or the 'sex-ationship' with just the casual rooting around, no strings attached?

A 'sex-ationship' well sounds good in theory. Not having to pretend you care if you don't, not needing to spend your time together, no meeting family or friends and playing nice, no dates, just sex, with the only rule being 'No strings attached'. Yet don't we all know 'no strings attached' means we will pretend that there is no feeling, but at least one of us will most likely be hurt at one stage when they confuse or mix their emotions with plain emotionless sex.

And then there is the relationship. The spending quality time together, going on dates, meeting families, actually caring, being there for the plain out shit times but also there for the good. Plus of course, the sex is there aswell just with meaning and emotion behind it.

Which is better? I much prefer the relationship, though i'm sure not everyone is on the same side as me.

But here is my actual question and thought..
If you can have a relationship without sex can you have sex without a relationship?

Though who said anything about a relationship without sex anyhow..

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx

The L Word.

The L word, the scary, meaningful, big word that means so much yet is only four letters long.

So last Tuesday my boyfriend took that step of a relationship and said the L word. This to me was enormous. It means despite that i thought he did i now actually know he does, he loves me. And that is the most amazingly happy, greatful and gorgeous feeling in the entire world.

The moment the words leave his lips everytime he tells me my heart is instantly filled with happiness.

This guy is the one i want to be with forever, and i am the one he wants. There is nothing that could be more perfect. Because i love him back at the moment and as each day passes i only love him more.

But here's the thing to watch out for.. (though i know this is not my case at the moment, i will just explain it to you for your benefit) the ones who say they love you because really they do love you, they love the fact that when they say those three prescious words you're theirs you drop to the ground in happiness, you sleep with them because hey, why not, they love you. These people i have had too much contact with, yet really i haven't had that much. But even being told your loved once when really your not is once too many.

Then there are the other types of love and people that i completely cannot understand. They are the ones who love you, and generally do but still want other people so hurt you and then think that once they realise its better to be with the one they love instead of love them but be with many others they want you back. But when you realise being with someone because they love you in their own messed up way is not what you want or deserve is no way to live when you could easily be with the someone who loves you and treats you right the person gets hurt, begs for you back, tells you all about how you're breaking their heart and as you continue not going back to the disfunctional love relationship because, who ever you are, you are better than that, the person decides they no longer love you, they hate you. Instantly their love is hate. How is it possibly for one to love you one minute and hate you the next? My personal opinion is it's not. They may love you but it's twisted and not how you deserve to be loved. These people are ass' if you go back to them then believe me you are a fool!

Now that my charming speel is done, i only have one more thing to say.

I am so glad i am not in a twisted disfunctional messed relationship, mine is perfect. And i love my boyfriend unonditionally no matter what, to me he is perfect. And that is what i think love is.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx 

The Good, The Bad, And Everything In Between..

I live in a tiny little town in a beautiful paradise, It has many reasons that make me never want to leave but many that make me want to escape.

Three weeks ago i wanted to leave. The small town crap of rumors, judgement and no privacy within your own life finally caught up to me. This is the bad. And there is no escape from it. The moment you realise in yourself that other people whom aren't important in your life don't matter and their shit that they bring into your life is just petty nonesence, and if you just brush it off like a leaf that has fallen on a chair you will be ok but if you let it bother you you will never be happy. Though this is way harder than it sounds. I still have many moments of mini breakdowns every few months or so because of the crap a small town paradise brings. Though my hatered only lasts a day or two and then i see it for its delight, like i do now and most of the time.

And this week it's my gorgeous boyfriends time of hate towards this small towns sillyness.

But the good is oh so good. It's beautiful here everyday. I have climatised that when it gets down to mid 20s i am cold and get out my cardi and doona..pathetic i know. The beach is across the road from my house, this is amazing. I will never be able to live away from the beach, it is too incredible and to me living near the beach is home, wherever i may be. The people (generally) are friendly, because you don't want to get off on the wrong side in a small town where everyone knows everyone and everything.

I don't know how long i want to stay here, I know i don't want to leave just yet. Though i will if it's whats needed for my boyfriend but i really hope that it's not.

This place may be shit and not what i want sometimes but regardless of that it is everything I want in my paradise i currently call home.

So my advice to you all, small towns aren't as bad as you think. Give them a shot, i did dispite my fear and hatered of them i quickly found it for its beauty.. I guess it's kinda like people. If you put down your armor and stop thinking what you know you may find out what you actually want, need and like. And this may be your blessing in disguise.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx 

Happy Wife, Happy Life,

The things i really don't understand that this so called male race do as lifestlye normalities..

I mean do you really need to leave the toilet seat up all the time? Yes we get it, you can stand. But you don't need to constantly remind us of this everytime we enter the bathroom and are faced with the upright toilet seat. Work your arm muscles just that tiny bit and flick the lid down every once in a while.

Is it a necessity that you leave all your clothes on the floor regardless if they are clean or not so that they all have to be re-washed because you also left your wet smelly shower towl with them..I know you love mold and the grossness of it all, but really for the ones who do all your washing it isn't as charming as you think.

Are you positive you don't just want to romantically watch the notebook or movies as such with me? Are you really sure?? Because i'm sure if you put down your "I'm not watching that crap" act you would actually enjoy it, well..at least a little bit.

Roses are nice by the way, just adding that in there in case you all forgot.

Do boys nights always have to have some form of drama. You all think the girls have drama, but spending the night bitching about crap isn't drama in comparisson to getting faces smashed in, dissapointing people or almost sleeping with the married cougars.

Oh hey, yes you should have your fourth cup of coffee out of a different cup. What a brilliant idea! But if you decide to spice it up a bit and use only one cup and wash it in between instead of leaving it for your adoring other half to wash you could bring all your empty water bottles and fill them back up and pack into the fridge so once again the household can have water.. But of course don't do it all at once, you wouldn't want to kill us of culture shock now would you.

Before i forget, I'll just share a valuable secret with you all..
The bath mat is neatly spread out infront of the shower/bath for a reason! So if you drench it with water the way to make it back to normal is to hang it out and pick it up off its scrunched up pile on the floor. Though it will remain a mystery how it got like that after only standing on it...

But all in all, although you are an extremely strange bunch. I wouldn't want it any other way.. most of the time.

But I'm sure it couldn't hurt to give one of these a try every once in a while.. As my uncle always says, happy wife, happy life. And i'm sure for a happy wife he must throw one of these ideas in the air on the odd special occasion.

Lots Of Love,
Pretty Little Bitch Girl
xx 

My morning, Your night.

So a rant about me..

My boyfriend works on the mines, so he is not here all the time. This means for half of his shift that he is away i say good morning he says good night. It means i don't get to talk to him when i want to as he is tired from working and therefore asleep, working or i am asleep or working. It means i'm alone when he is away, not literally as i have my amazing friends around yet i still feel alone. All in all it kinda sucks.

Yet when he is away i realise how much i appreciate and care for him, which makes it all that better when he gets back.

But really, i don't even know how to explain how i miss him when he is gone or how truly happy i am when he is home.

Anyhow, I've had enough of a rant about me, my message to leave you with is.. When you find someone who makes you happy at the sight or thought of them, someone who is the first and last thing you think about each day, someone who you wouldn't want to be without, someone who means more to you than anything else, keep them. Don't let them go.

Lots Of Love,
      Pretty Little Bitch Girl
                        xx